I haven't written anything on here for a while so I guess I'll provide an update. I'm doing better with my situation overall, but occasionally I still get upset about it. My friend (the gay guy I'm attracted to) really has been making attempts to include me in his activities as much as possible, which I like because he's showing me consideration, but at the same time I wanted to pull myself away from him to try to spend more time with my other people in an attempt to rid my feelings for him. I like that he's showing me consideration and we still do spend a lot of time together, but an awkward issue occurs when he wants to spend time with both his boyfriend and me at the same time. I feel kind of awkward being in their presence, not only because I feel like the third wheel, but also because I have feelings for this guy and here he is making out with his boyfriend right in front of me. I've turned down spending time with them several times and it makes my friend upset, but I just feel too awkward around them. Should I feel this way or should I just enjoy myself regardless? I can't tell if my behavior in this situation is justified because I almost feel childish, but at the same time I'm genuinely upset.