I relate to so much of what's been said. The question of "okay, what now?" hit me like a ton of bricks right after I got my first year. I realized I was envious of the newcomers getting chips all the time. I was going to have to wait a whole year to pick up another chip! LOL

I especially relate to sipping and stirring! Too funny! That was me. "How much longer before we eat?" Sometimes they'd be asleep before it was - ahem - "ready". I have to laugh because if I remember what it was really like during those times I'll have to cry.

There have been so many things to learn how to do without a drink or a drug. My first plane flight sober, ball games, parties, intimacy, brunch, etc. Hard? Yes. Some more than others.

Splitimage, congratulations on your first year. It's a fine accomplishment, one that very few ever make. What Capp suggested for these holidays is perfect if you're in a 12 step program. Plan ahead for these holidays and book yourself silly! Putting a schedule together brings order and stability. Being lonely on Christmas day is a crummy recipe. Take the bull by the horns and get out in front of this!

Capp, you hit the nail on the head for me...more joy, less fear...that's the best gift I've received in sobriety. It says you're in GA, does that mean you know about a Savannah St. Paddy's Day first hand?

Much gratitude,
notz