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Touchy subject for me, lol. I took a huge risk asking T if I could email him because I knew that he did not do email. He doesn't even have a computer in his office. He granted my request since he knows the importance of writing for me, and the difference between my candidness and expression in writing verses verbal communication.
So he created an email account on his home computer just for me to send him email. I absolutely loved this because so much was able to come out in my writing that we could later process in session. (Unfortunately I also said a lot of mortifying things that are now forever stated in writing, lol). We came to an understanding that he wouldn't always reply, but he would always read. When he did reply, I really appreciated it. I really valued his replies, and some of them are just priceless because my T has a very unique use of the English language, lol.
Then the rules changed. I see my T at an agency. The agency made two new policies due to the fact that they want communication kept internal, in case anything happens. Policy #1 is no outside email accounts. He can create an agency email account, but I don't think he is allowed to respond. Policy #2 is that I can still call him on his cell phone to see if he'll pick up, but I can't leave a message (don't really care about that change of policy cause I never left msgs on there anyway).
T still hasn't given me his work email address, but he has continued to permit me to email him at his personal email address with the understanding that he can't respond.
Well that recently got screwed up because his dog chewed through the ****ing computer cable so even if I do email him, he has no access to it.
So yeah, the whole email thing is an issue for me because it was huge way of me staying connected with him, and I can't help but feel as though something was taken away.
I know that once I get his work email address, I can email him (I think), and it will still feel good-- because another reason that I email him is to remind myself that he is still there; that he does in fact exist-- because to email him means that he is out there-- I am writing to him... so he must be constant.
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