I know how you feel. I'm sorry and I know it hurts really bad and it is impossible in your own mind to stop the pain without perhaps suggested meds which you may not be interested in. Meet me at the spiritual santuary and maybe I can help there.

I have a good answer but if I write it here they may not post it b/c
it has a "religious" message.

You are loved...Hang in there hon

Lihn