Dolfin

I'm emerging from the hell and chaos of feeling extremely depressed, suicidal and then followed by ultra-rapid-cycling for 3 hellish days. It was a very horrendous 1 1/2 weeks to be sure. I'm feeling better this afternoon, I'm starting to feel some inner peace and am using this period of 'normalcy' if that's what it is, to do some self-improvement and growing. I'm creating a 'healing' binder. I'm doing all sorts of research on the net and when I find things that scream out to me, I'm printing them off and putting them in a binder. I will study from my binder and try to use it in times when the cycles find me back in torment again, hopefully holding onto at least some of what I'm learning now.

So, with that, I've also decided to start posting again. I do still feel somewhat easily triggered so I feel both strong and fragile at the same time, if that makes any sense? I'm hoping this time of calmness in my soul will last for awhile so that I may continue to grow and become stronger. I'm also hoping that the cycles don't take a sudden change, whipping me back into depression and throwing this new found feeling of some peace out the window.

I'm sorry to hear that you find yourself in a not so good place and your own need to take a 'break'. I also hope you feel much better soon and that you can return shortly. I look forward to getting to know you better. Thanks for the hugs and the invitation of friendship.

Much love and peace.

((((((((((((( Dolfin ))))))))))))