hes a year ten. im a year eleven.. and my friends wouldnt approve. at all. and its like.. argh.
another hint tonight and i managed to tell him how i feel, without meaning to.
worked so hard to rebuild friendships and be happy again, sorting out my life. and now im like.. willing to screw it up. because i like someone because theyre not an a**h*le. because they like me because they think im a genuinely person. and.. i like them. they are honestly amazing.
its stupid, really. ive only known them a couple months.
is it horrible to want someone but want them.. secretly? to want your friends more than them?
and.. erghh i just.. i want to be with him. and it sounds stupid. i trust him.. but would it be horrible for me to want a secret relationship with them? just to be able to be with them?
x