Thank you all for your support. Its been a difficult journey and something tells me that I still have a way to go. Ive spent a long time blaming myself and I still do and I still feel very afraid. I dont go out and I dont walk where I think they will be. I refuse to let a guy be interested in me although I really want them too. Still not sure what direction to turn but I guess I have to keep writing and talking and somehow Ill find a way.

Thank you once again for your support