He said I alienate myself from my friends b/c I never see them....He doesn't even know that I am miserable and have social anxiety. I hide it well, obviously. But him saying that just made me hate myself even more than I do now. It's not like I intentionally alienate myself.... I miss my friends. He doesnt know about the depression-- I guess because I always sound bubbly and I am going about my days looking like a normal happy person...going to work, paying my bills...the necessary stuff...out side of that I am miserable. Most days I just want to stay in my sweats and waste the day away under my blankets. I wish I was dead most days and cant wait for that day to come....No one sees it, no one knows it. I finally told my older sister on thursday because my doc needed me to find out what anti-depressant she is on...she said "since when are you depressed???" I told my sister she wasnt the only one who didnt know and to not feel bad I hide it well in the comfort of my bedroom....outside of my bedroom i look "happy" and semi productive in my every day life.... I've done a really good job at "hiding"...sigh....

(I lost the main point of this post....sorry)

But back to the main point, what he said made me feel even worse and more guilty about alienating myself...I just wish he knew what was really going on. But I hate being a burden and I dont want to sound like a negative nelly or a kill joy...whatever......