thank you ((( marci, blue93, pegasus )))

frankly i'm not sure what those around me can do to help, things are just such a drag now and it's too stressful and hard. december has always been a tough month for us.

fingers are crossed this clinic i'm now looking into will accept him and he'll accept the help. my priority is seeing him on the road to recovery, then maybe i can look after myself. i feel guilty for having landed in hospital, i know he blames himself.



just hoping we'll get a break and something will look up soon. i appreciate you all. i'm eager to go ome and see him. i just home it'll be like seeing HIM again, and not this confused thing he's been reduced to. i'll always love him no matter what, but i wish he could see how ill he is and that lying to himself about his illness only hurts everyone.