Thread: can't stop :/
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Old Dec 07, 2008, 11:40 PM
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that's a good question of ideas of how to stop using. for me it had to be me wanting to stop bad enough. i was told, "we quit when we are sick and tired of feeling sick and tired"...of it and where it takes us. problem was that for me i had to go down a very slippery slope before i hung it up. i realize today i could have done what i needed to do long before the mass destruction of "self" happened to me but i didn't want to bad enough. so...i went further down first. (by no means do i advocate what i did to others. i almost didn't make it back to the "world'.) by the time i got clean and sober i was so terrified that i might ever use again and it took me almost 5 years one day at a time and a 12 step recovery program on a daily basis to finally gain some element of confidence that i could truly do this..meaning successfully staying stopped.
anything mood altering did provide minor temporary relief from my bipolar but in the end it bit me in my behind.
IMHO.
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