My T knows I write a journal (writing is one of the very few techniques that help me when I’m a mess and it is also the way I think, I can’t think only in my head, I need to write things down) and she told me several times that I can bring stuff to read anytime I want, but I never did that before, because she meant I bring along something and I read it aloud. I’m too scared to do that, stuff I write is not meant to be said out loud, it’s for silent reading only. It’s hard to explain, but I can’t and I won’t read it aloud, and I don’t want her to do that either. The thing is, I would like to bring a short excerpt from my journal to the next appt, but I’m scared, because I’m 100% sure T will push me to read it. I just want to give her the sheet of paper and we can talk about it later. I’m ready to talk about it; I’m just not ready to read it/hear it.

Have you ever been in a situation when you give something for T to read and he/she pushes you to read it aloud? What did u do?

I'm so nervous about this...