i did read the sticky posts on DID. i will follow up reading some of the links suggested.

what i don't understand is - is it DID if you know you are you all the time? when my little "comes out" or my other "alter" i am always present as well. i always know what i am doing. it's just that sometimes it is easier to think or express myself as someone different. my "alters" are more of a tool - i - use with intent, reason and purpose.

having said that, they do tend to have minds of their own. - i - don't seem to control what they think. or perhaps, i do. i just don't want to take ownership of those thoughts or feelings. so i attribute them to the alter. especially the negative thoughts. they don't come from me - i assign them to her.

when things get to hard to deal with, i make a conscious decision to be little. to let little out. when i do, she then thinks for herself. she knows what she likes and doesn't like. sometimes it can differ slightly from what i like or dislike.

i don't know. maybe it's just not important. it is whatever it is. they don't interfere with my life. so i guess it's not a problem.

i think if anything i'm trying to figure out how to explain it to others. i have a new friend i'm becoming close to. he knows about my little self. but how do i explain it?!

oh well...