does anyone feel useless...like you try hard and you don't know what you want.you're just waiting for something to hit you and then you'll have meaning and purpose in life. I feel like I don't have any meaning. My bf is the one who looks out for me and makes me feel whole. He makes me feel safe and loves me for me...will I ever excape the pain...In some ways I wish life did not have rules..I wish we didn't have to live our lives accorindg to what we are expected to do...I want freedom to do what I wish and when I wish...I hate being controlled...