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Originally Posted by sadly_me
when my little "comes out" or my other "alter" i am always present as well. i always know what i am doing. it's just that sometimes it is easier to think or express myself as someone different. my "alters" are more of a tool - i - use with intent, reason and purpose.
having said that, they do tend to have minds of their own. - i - don't seem to control what they think. or perhaps, i do. i just don't want to take ownership of those thoughts or feelings. so i attribute them to the alter. especially the negative thoughts. they don't come from me - i assign them to her.
when things get to hard to deal with, i make a conscious decision to be little. to let little out. when i do, she then thinks for herself. she knows what she likes and doesn't like. sometimes it can differ slightly from what i like or dislike.
i don't know. maybe it's just not important. it is whatever it is. they don't interfere with my life. so i guess it's not a problem.
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I actually feel like that quite a lot... and I have never been diagnosed with DID or anything.
Of course that may be because I have never talked to a T about "feeling little"... I don't know.
But sometimes, my
inner child (I don't call her an alter since I don't technically have DID)
comes out when I am scared, alone, sick, depressed, etc and she comes out every night.
When she comes out, I tend to get very small (curl up in a ball, etc), cuddle with stuffed
animals, want to held... and sometimes (mainly at night) I even suck my thumb.
I don't know if all that makes me have DID or not......