Sparrow,
I know what it is like to grow up in a household that didn't have feelings, in fact they would only cause more problems if you showed them. I too have the inner rage of wanting to shout on top of my lungs too of what happened. I know you probably aren't comfortable with showing those emotions, that feel so powerful if unleashed, but it is okay to feel them, it is okay to tell. You gotta get that poison out of you or else that rage and anger turns against your own body. You have have every right to feel enraged against what happened to you, so much was taken from you , things that should have been sacred.
Take care, little bird, with a big heart.
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Originally Posted by Silversparrow
I feel rageful and violent today, I should sleep more but I can't I feel like an animal trapped in a cage.
I have never felt this much anger over the past, about the abuse.
I just want to run around screaming and stomping my feet, I want to get on top of a building and just stand up there screaming my story.
I want to see my abuser hurt like they have hurt me, I want to see everyone's abuser's hurt like they have hurt all of us.
I want back what he has stolen from me, I want my innocence back, I want my happiness,
I JUST WANT TO SCREAM
I HAVE TO LIVE WITH THIS EVERY DAY, EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE, I HOPE HE ROTS IN HELL.
This stain on me, it never washes off, every day of my life I have to live with the memories, every day, every ****ing day, I can feel him, hear him, gahh @_@
I want to make him hurt, like he has hurt me, I want him to suffer like I have, I know that will never make the memories go away, and that no good comes with returning hurt with more hurt.
but today is just an odd day, and I feel a little unstable and unhinged, I need to sleep, I need to sleep,
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