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Old Dec 09, 2008, 11:37 AM
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my daughter has been needing huge amounts of support. she is kinda falling apart in her job as special ed teacher(1st year). she has crying jags, panic attacks, depression and has never been quite this way before. i've sent her to my t for some short term help. but i want to run away from her because i feel like she's drowning and pulling me under with her. i hate feeling that way about my daughter. my mom never was able to be there for me very well and i don't want to be like her, but i am feeling panicked myself when she calls and i feel angry. then i feel selfish for feeling bad about my daughter. i want to dig a hole, crawl in and pull the top over me and hide. i am so sick of being so darn reactive to life. grrr. why can't i just be able to detach and help without feeling her feelings so strongly that i think i'm gonna suffocate? i am angry with me. i need a local support group.

2 christmas parties coming up and i'd rather do almost anything else but go to parties. they make me feel horrible and i hate that about me. i lead a quiet life and just don't have a bunch of small talk to use to pass the time. i wish i could not feel this way. it sounds so pathetic to whine over having to go to parties, but it really makes me suffer. grr.
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