I don't know whether i should be posting this here or in the grief forum but since i am depressed i will put it here. tomorrow will be the one year anniversary of my favorite sisters death. while it was not totally unexpected- she had been ill for quite a long time- first her kidneys failed and she was on dialysis, then she had to undergo open heart surgery to have her mitral valve replaced and then she developed alot of breathing problems and had to always use oxygen. but through it all she held on saying that she planned on staying around. she lived 8 hours from me and whenever a crisis occurred i would jump in the car and be with her as quick as i could.i spent her first dialysis treatment with her, i spent four days there when she had her heart surgery, i would just drive up and surprise her for no particular reason. we talked on the phone all the time. she was my best friend. i have two other sisters but we don't seem to have the same connection. i talked with her on the phone the day before she died and she sounded better than i had heard her sound in so long. so it really came as a shock the next day when the call came. she was all alone and apparently a blood clot went to her brain. the coroner said she died instantly. no pain thank God. i miss her more than i can put into words. we had just lost our mother seven months before. alot of loss to handle in a short time. so if you will all think about me tomorrow i would appreciate it because i will need all the good thoughts i can get. thanks you are all very special people.