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hi rainbow,
i just read this thread. normally i am not in this part of pc, but i finally had to admit that i am abusing the painkillers prescribed to me. i had 5 1/2 years sobriety and the doc. began to give me some pain meds to help becuase i have bone on bone arthritis in both knees and fibromyalgia.
so, i do understand the struggle with pain and addiction and "wanting so much just to function" that i got addicted. it wasn't that i just wanted to be "high", i just wanted to be normal and do my chores and things that need doing.
OK, so that is background and here's what i really wrote to tell you. When a person gets addicted to pain killers they seem to work less well and so you keep upping your dosage. well, here's the deal the more pills you take the less well your body gets help from them. so when you finally get off of the codeine in the pills you will find your pain levels go down. the fear in going off is that you will hurt too bad to do anything at all. it doesn't happen that way, you actually begin to feel better than when you were overdoing it.
if you have insurance, at some point it may be helpful to go back to the doctor and just tell him the pain is getting too bad to cope and see if there are pain-management courses you can take to help you manage your life better.
you are showing some real courage and character to recognize what you are doing and calling it what it is and not lying to yourself. i am rooting for you to be able to kick the habit and find another way to deal with your pain issues.
see you around,
leslie and the pixies
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