You have been leslie and it wasn't small.....

The first step in changing any behavior is accepting it..becopming accountalbe. You just did.

I would think that maybe attending an NA meeting and listening a bit until you found a person that you could identify with and then taking that person aside and explain just what you did here...A risk I know...but I think it may reap some rewards..

Your OK...you will get throught this...

Lenny