She's not there

I can't help but keep remembering memories from my childhood. They were repressed...but they keep surfacing. I don't want to remember anymore.

I wish my cousins never touched me...ever...I can't stand being touched anymore...even though we were little it still hurt and made me uncomfortable...just don't like it. It upsets my littles

How did I get trapped into this family? This family built on abuse after abuse...just not necessary...a family shouldn't have this..