Thank you all, so much, your kindness and the fact you have taken time to respond..it touches me.
I am working through the anger, I am learning to work with it instead of against it, it is horribly frighting..how bad I want to hurt my abuser, but a friend told me, even if I went and sought revenge, it would never change the past or what has happend.

So I am trying to channel the anger in more positive ways, like working on my photography, or my writing. I am trying to forgive, and work towards getting back into therapy, this is so hard, one of the hardest things in my life to deal with, but I am getting there, one step at a time, and I will slip, and fall, but I know I have a wonderful support group around me, I am so blessed to have my friends irl and here on PC.

We are all survivors, we are all strong, we are not alone, we can all heal together, as one.

Sending peaceful and healing thoughts to everyone
Sparrow