Hey BIZI and everyone,

I haven't been on , got kinda busy around here lately. Well first of all, I went in to the PDOC today, he prescribed me TRILEPTAL 150MG Mood stabilizer. And TRAZODONE 100MG to help me sleep. So far I go in every Thursday for Therapy, the therapist is really nice too, easy to talk to. The PDOC basically says I am Manic Depress. so he says he wants me to try this cocktail for 30 days and tell him how it is when I go back in January 9th. Now the hubby, he is on hold for me, right now, for once in my life (since we have been together ) he is on HOLD. I am working on me right now, I have interviewed two nice women, one of them 38, she has 2 high school age children, and she babysit two toddlers. And the other woman, she use to sit for a 9 month old, but now that child is in daycare. So I haven't decided between the two. But yeah, thats my next step, I want to hire a sitter. I am also thinking about going back to work, for the financial independance, and to kinda be involved in something during the day. When my hubby leaves out, no matter how long he stays out, I don't call, I continue with my day, get the kids ready for bed when bedtime comes, and then I go to bed, I have been doing that for 3 days now, and I intend on sticking to it. Today he called while we were out, and said he was gonna be home by 5pm, 5 came and went and I didn't call. Now before I would call, and listen to his pack of lies, get upset, call back, argue, cry, and some nights he ended up not coming home at all. And I either stayed up all night sometime, and sometime I rehatched it when he came in the next day. And now, in a way, I DON'T CARE WHAT HE DOES. lol. So my goal is to just keep pushing up, and getting things together, and deal with everything else later. I gotta go now. Oh, by the way, the TRILEPTAL is 2x a day, so I took one, since it was 6pm when I got in. I won't take another until I awake in the morning. And the TRAZODONE is 1 b/4 bed. So will take that tonight. But I feel pretty good so far. Anyhow, thanks for checking on me, any info on the R/X's ? Have you heard of them ? I know it's only been a day, well a few hours, so I will see how they hold up. Share any info if you have any. Thanks BIZI