T has told me SO MANY TIMES that it's okay if I get angry at him. I feel like he WANTS me to get angry. I don't "do" anger that much in general - but like hangingon said, T tells me it's because I've only seen "unhealthy" anger, and that I can have angry feelings and express them and it can be okay.

I used to be very emotionless in therapy. Since mid-October, I've cried more than I've probably cried in my entire life combined up until now (which is still not much! lol). Things happened, the dam broke, and all of these tears have been unlocked. Before, I wasn't comfortable with emotions in OR out of the room.

We do laugh a lot in therapy. It's part of how we connect the best, I think.

Tonight I actually went IN to therapy crying, and came out laughing. Talk about hitting the entire range of feelings!

I don't know where all of this came from...I think a few things came together that just pushed me over the edge - and then once the tears started, there they were. I was HORRIFIED the first few times I cried in therapy. Tonight I only apologized once for crying. Progress?

You will get there. Believe me, if I got there, you will too. Trust your T, trust the process, trust yourself. I never thought these feelings would be unlocked, but slowly but surely, here they come....