oh yes...i'm so much more comfortable outside of session. today she asked me if being there and holding back reminded me of anything, and i said no. I mean what could possibly be related to sitting in a therapy session? i have no idea! I desperately want to be able to go in there and feel 100% comfortable and open, but I also believe I can't do it---how can I if I don't know what is holding me back?

I know that I am struggling with the fact taht I have nothing worthy to say. She knows my life story which is pretty benign, and yet I'm still sitting there. Why? What more is there to say? I know I avoid my lack of relationships, but BECAUSE it is a lack of relationships, what is there to say?