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Originally Posted by Lenny
Wonderfull choice in music Capp...there is something heavenly about the harmonics of the flute and those that play it....the harp too.....
I saw the face of the devil once Capp...Like the hell around him..it never leaves you. It changes you. I cannot change back.
So...I have found that when I stare back at him when he appears he backs away a little each time.  ..Someday,,,I envision,,he will be a speck upon the horizon...still a part of my world,,,a piece of the picture upon the canvas of Lenny...but such a minute brush stroke....that only my insolence will find him...
Lenny
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Thank you, Lenny.
Robert Windpony plays like my first husband did--pure flute with no synthesizing sounds. Before he died, he tried to teach me to play the flute. I barely learned a bit, but it brought me closer to him and to his clan. It was my effort not the result that mattered...
Oh yeah that devil.
Lenny, sometimes I wonder about it. I don't think it ever leaves us, and it does become smaller over time. But I do have these episodes although they are fewer and less terrifying now. At one time I couldn't ground myself and that was the pits.
I'm very grateful for getting grounded more quickly...I've a desire to pass on to others with PTSD that it does get better. Like you said, though, you face it and it shrinks bit by bit.
Thank you for sharing with me and for your encouragement, Lenny.
Part of my spiritual path is the belief that kindness is returned to you ten times over. Much good will come your way, my friend, when you least expect it.
Peace and Power,
Cap
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