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Originally Posted by lmg103
capp, well i hadn't been getting any thing for my depression, but recently i had a fall out and blah now i gotta go to lots of therapy. but ya, the high just makes me feel so good for at least a little, and i feel like i deserve that. but when its gone its just neverrr ending. i want to feel good again, so i smoke more. its just so hard. i feel like right now, i cant stop.
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((lmg103))
hey, just my opinion...you are doing the best you can right now.
please don't put yourself down, ok?
You are aware of changes you want to make and you will make them when you are ready...it may be soon, it may be later. Keep sharing as honestly as you already have...
I admire that in you, img. Honesty and I believe there is willingness developing, too
I know it's hard.
I'm going to share something with you now...when I had my surgery and was getting my pre-op meds, I throughly enjoyed that temporary high. I'm not ashamed of feeling that way, either.
It was a bit of a reminder of how good it can feel even for a little while...but I'm still fiercely protective of being clean and sober.
I came out of the gutter and I'll do everything I can not to take up residence there again...
Cap
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