I'm extremely frustrated.

Ever since my periods started, they have been painful. As time went on, they got worse; now, at age 20, I literally go into shock every single first day and end up fainting on my bathroom floor. I get feverish, chills, dizziness, pounding heart, extreme pain to the point of vomiting, disoriented, and aforementioned fainting. I cannot stand because of the pain up through my back and clear down my thighs. Painkillers last for maybe 1 hour tops before wearing off, assuming I don't vomit them up. Heat packs do nothing. Ibeprofuen does nothing. I've been on BC pills first to try and lighten them, and then just to skip it entirely, to no avail. They come anyway, with such force I cannot even describe it.

As of right now, none of my doctors can give me a specific reason for this. Severe periods run in my maternal family; almost everyone has a tilted uterus or some such and my mother experienced such severe pain even after 3 pregnancies carried to full term that she had an endometrial ablation done.

This operation took her horrific periods down to light spotting and slight crankiness. Every so often she has light back pain, but nothing like before.

I want this surgery. I want this so that I can stop losing days of my life in such pain I have actually considered killing myself in the midst of it just to stop the agony. I am 100% serious in that I cannot live with this pain anymore. This surgery would help so, so much.

But no one, and I mean not one of the six doctors I've consulted, will even discuss it with me on the grounds that I am too young to have a procedure which will stop me from being able to bear children.

I do not want children. I don't like children, and I think my personality would make for a terrible mother. I have poor health; pregnancy would be unwise for me regardless. I have not wavered in this stance since I was 13 years old; I'll be 21 in a month. Should I ever for some reason change my mind, I'd adopt anyway, because I have a lot of genetic disorders I don't want to pass on.

And despite this, my doctors are telling me that I must continue to suffer like this until I am thirty years old on the grounds that I might "change my mind." I am being denied a critical treatment because apparently, even though I am an adult, I am not allowed to make such a decision about my own damn body.

Does anyone else find this completely and utterly insane? It's to the point where my parents are considering helping me get the procedure done in Canada, because no one in the US is willing to GIVE ME WHAT I WANT TO ELIMINATE MY EXCRUCIATING AND DEBILITATING PAIN.

I'm angry and in pain and would like to know if anyone has an experience with this sort of outright denial of treatment.