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Today is the one year anniversary of my Dad's care accident and death. I can't sleep so I've been going thru some boxes that I didn't fully unpack after moving. Mostly sentimental stuff of/from my Parents. But I forced myself to do it because I think it is go for me to do especially today. I found the last birthday card that my Mom gave my Dad that he had saved. Late that night my Mom had to go to the hospital and she passed from an illness 2 months later where me and my Dad took 24/7 care of her at home. Also, I found the last birthday card that I gave my Dad that he saved. He wasn't or tried not to appear to be sentimental so it was surprising to me that he saved my card. Also, I found the last birthday card my Parents gave me which means alot being my birthday was just Monday. I've been crying really hard and heavy for awhile now, I have tears running on to my lips just typing this. Since I can't get up to the cemetary, I plan to go to the Catholic Church around the corner from me. I figure I can try to talk to my Parents there being they are buried in a Catholic cemetary. It's really hard and upsetting but I just feel the need to face all of this even with the ridiculous amount of crying involved. I need to handle my grief differently. Sorry for rambling but just felt the need to talk about it. Thanks for listening.