I don't have a serious drinking problem, I've done tests and discoeverd I have a slight dependency, but most of the time I drink alone.. And don't go out because I don't like to go out alone.

My key support worker and I were talking about all this yesterday, as much as I didn't want to talk to her about it, we talked thorugh it and decided that when I don't "hang out" with the people that live around me, who have no self respect, not respect for others and drink their lives away, and I keep myself to myself, I'm happy, bouncy, alive again.. But as soon as I go back to hanging out with them, everythin goes "tits up" as Abi said. So, we've decided that the best thing to do is to move me on to more independant living, to be the person I want to be, not the person I don't want to be and am becoming.

My sleeping is all over the place, I still can barely eat or drink and I wouldn' t be surprised if the weight just feel off me.. in a way, this is just feeding my ED even more.. It really doesn't help at all..