trigger warning for reference to 'false memories'

How do you trust what you remember?
I know that some of what I remember has at least some truth to it, but I also know that some of what I have remembered in the past is NOT true. I don't know where reality lies. I have no way of discerning my own reality. The memories I have had that have been corroborated by others (perps admitted it) I cannot distinguish internally in any reliable way from the memories that I know for absolute certain are NOT true. And the difference in severity between the 'true' abuse and the 'not true' abuse is like this:

xxx (true) XXXXX (not true)

the shades of grey, the in between abuse, i have no idea about. I really don't even know what is true of the 'xxx' abuse, even tho I know something occurred.

The reason I ask is, for insurance convering purposes, I have to go to T next week and give her details about my abuse. The who what where when guts of it all.

And all I can think is I can't tell her anything. Because all of it is lies. Because there is no reality. Because I have no truth.