i have lready started trying to heal, I was doing so well, too. For 3 weeks I was so happy.. But this has gone and brought me down a lot, but not so much as before, luckily. I will try and talk to my therapist, that's the onyl thing I can do. He's a guy, so it makes it even harder to be honest.

I'm just getting fed up and angry and upset over havign to keep repeating it to everyone, i don't want to keep having to remember every moment of it..

And my boyfriend just wants to hurt me. For all the s**t I've had. All the s**t I've been through and put on him. Does that sound justified?