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Originally Posted by ECHOES
I think she'd be delighted for me to be angry with her, and she'll ask if something that has happened between us made me feel angry, disappointed, etc. I asked her why she keeps wanting to make me out to be angry! Maybe angry would be better, more interesting, less agonizingly boring than the non-reacting, holding in, holding back.
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I know how that is too. I was totally hidden for a year. Then we had a big disconnect... I was in tremendous pain and anger for two weeks and when I saw her again, what I had intended to be a rational statement turned into a trigger and I really blew my top - the anger came out with thunder and lightning - in my mind's eye she shrank into a corner but at least I'm certain that she wasn't bored, ha ha.
Actually, after that it became easier for me to open up. Since she has now gotten a glimpse of the monster lurking within, why not.