I'm back at university now. haven't SI-ed for just over two months. been having thoughts of SI a nd suicide again for the past week or so and they are just getting stronger. i see my counsellor again this wednesday and am reluctant to talk to her about how i'm really feeling. i feel like i'm slowly disintegrating and falling apart. dont see how i am going to be able to cope with deadlines and exams which will be upon me in a month or so. i have to pass the exams to get into my second year, but i'm fuctioning less and less.