Myo, you say you are being controlled and then you say that you feel like you have no meaning. I think this is all related. What gives our lives meaning is when we are in control of ourselves. I have certain, very defined interests that I am very passionate about. If I didn't follow my own path and denied these interests and let someone else steer my boat my life would have much less meaning. We are all unique individuals and only we know what we want out of life and no one else can really make these decisions for us. So, what is holding you back from taking control over your own life?