((nightbird))
I truly appreciate your support and encouragement...
Thank you for sharing about the tapes, etc..

In all honesty, and this is just my opinion, there comes a point when someone accepts that it will always be with you, albeit in a lessor way.
I still keep in touch with members of my PTSD support group. Like anything else, though, ya have to move beyond some things and trust yourself to get grounded asap and get in touch with one of your group to talk it out.
It got to the point that most of us realized that continuing to seek different methods was actually keeping us bound to the memories/PTSD. I'm not implying that we are cured...

There was no way I could have prepared for the explosive sounds yesterday. My "resources" are something I value and, again, they are fiercely protected...
Yesterday was but an episode. It didn't send me back to the jungle and the OR...although the memories still brought sadness, I know that is a part of my life and always will be. My father shared little about his experiences on Luzon, what he did share was very simple. "You are raw at first and you develop a scab and it falls off and there is the scar. It also fades with time, and you live with it. It becomes a part of who you are--a part and not a badge."

I don't know if any of this is making sense...I'm just sharing my thoughts and feelings about it.I agree with you that each of us has to find the right way for ourselves although there are so very many commonalities about PTSD/abuse.
I also think it's very important that we share what has worked for us...


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