Seven years ago, I became ill with some neurologic dysfunction and went through testing for MS. I was on tons of meds....had tons of testing done. My last visit to the neuro really ticked me off. His words to me were that if this is MS, it's a very mild case and I should be fine going forward. Hmmm...how supportive. Basically telling me to deal with it and stop complaining. So I said to heck with it and that's what I did. I dealt with it. I've had issues here and there with they symptoms every year since but I've shut up and dealt with it. Never went back to the doctor for anything except to my pcp for yearly exams. I have had no insurance since 2003. So nope, sabby does not go to the doctors unless absolutely necessary.

Well, the other day I had to make an appt with my pcp. I'm surely having another exacerbation of MS like symptoms. Almost as bad as 7 years ago. Well on second thought....as bad or worse even. The pain is worse. The twitching and tremors are not as bad so far, unless I'm feeling really stressed/tired/anxious, but the nerve pain is really getting to me. The numbness and tingling is all over my body this time...from my face to my feet. The tingling brings with it hot, searing nerve pain. Some days, my face feels swollen and heavy....almost every single day my left side feels heavy and clunky and numb. *sigh* I really hate this.

So off for round two of EEG's MRI's Evoked potential testing, and more bloodwork. In order to do all those things, I now have to apply for aid from the hospital/state. It's all very depressing and frustrating. What the heck am I going to do when both grandbabies are born next year? I just don't know how I will handle it all....I just don't