red, i hope you have a T to discuss this with. if the memories are surfacing you will need emotional guidance to deal with them. those of us who have experienced similar violations can understand your pain. these violations can make us distrustful of everyone. with help you can regain "self" and live again as all of god's children deserve to live.  you are worthy and a person of value even tho the "messages" you have gotten from family members makes you feel otherwise.
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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