((Simon))
exoticflower made some very good points that can help you.

jmo, but the majority of abused don't go on to abuse others. there is always the generational issues, but that's not what I'm talking about now.
If you were going to be an abuser then you would have done it by now, jmo.

it took some time for me, also, to work through intimacy issues. one of the first things I had to do was separate the abuse from sex/intimacy. abuse is an act of violence, intimate sex is not...it's a loving way of bonding.
it does present its own problems and I'm glad you and your T will work through it.

Walking the path of healing is daunting at first and you'll encounter many detours. It's just the way it is...
It does get better. We are survivors and we are brave...it takes an enormous amount of courage to seek treatment and the support of others who have gone through it.
I applaud your efforts, Simon!

Please keep posting and let us know how you are...we care.
We are walking similar paths and give a great deal of care and understanding to each other.