Sunrise
I did finally tell my T what I was feeling because we were in the middle of a CBT session and were talking about expressing feelings, so I thought the heck with it I am thinking about moving on anyways, so I said what I was feeling. TO be honest it got me know where, in that moment she was doing exactly what I was telling her bothered me so much.

Some one else mentioned validation first, my T rarely ever does that, I could probably count on one hand hand the times she has in a year. Its always thats black and what thinking, or thats irrrational, or thats minimizing ect. I know these terms because she taught me them. Thats the whole point, I know I have these issues, and I am already hard on myself about them, I can't take being slammed everytime I try to tell her how I feel, it makes me not want to talk to her about things at all. I can't figure it out.
Shes does psychoanalytic and cognative behavior therapy.

SHe just always seems to get on me about something. For instance I had told her that I just started taking something called Sam-e a natural product that helps with moods. I don't take meds and I have been feeling much more depressed since my moms death. So I try to be proactive and do something for myself here. I asked if she ever heard of it, she said no. Then she says, do you excercise, I said I use to run on the treadmill every other day but with school and all that happened this past semester I haven't been good about that.
SO she says, well I think you should be trying that before Sam-e.

I dont' know, I know alot of the things she says are for my good but I have never showed my emotions growing up and have a very hard time doing that, showing my feelings, and now I feel like I can't because I can't take being corrected every time I see her. I just want to be able to sit and feel, just once in a while. Sure we can talk about it but sometimes I need to sit through those emotions first. She just doesn't get it.

Hanging on