Wow!

There are so many stories I relate to here, and this is another one. My son has some similar history.

My nearly 20 year old son is very smart, too smart for his own good, been busted, continues to use drugs (but so do I from time to time), barely finished high school, refused college, can't hold any job more than a couple weeks. He is now in Japan, living by illegally playing music on the streets. I just found out he has to keep their local mafia happy to keep them from threatening him.

He has been coming and going now for 1 1/2 years. Somehow he stays safe and healthy.

You get used to it somehow. Not completely. It is not like you don't worry your guts sick, but you learn to cope.

What I am not sure about is your son's mental health. My son's thankfully, is a little paranoid. Does he have a diagnosed mental illness?

Sorry for rambling. I am too tired to be making much sense.

Thank you for sharing and we will be with you throught thick and thin.

Wherever you go, there you are