i am sorry i havent been able to give much support here at the site..i guess alot is going on with me right now..the depression has seem to have lifted some now but i am left with anger...maybe even grief...at the loss of the person i once was..who knows maybe it just plain confusion...i am left sitting at times thinking how deprssed i have been..the effects its had on my children...angry with myself....angry with the past that wont leave me alone...and pure grief at the person i once was that a past has taken from me....im sorry i dont wanna ramble nor do i wanna whine or feel like im feeling sorry for myself...i thought the depression was bad .in fact i know it is...but anger...its so powerful...i want to be able to be supportive here and im sorry i havent been able to be here and give whats been given to me....guess im still lost in my own despair...im sorry if i let anyone down here....and im sorry if this makes no sense..