I don't really have a deep need to test the waters, but I also absolutely hate change. It took A LOT to get me to call this T, and I do like her, I'm just struggling with the whole connection aspect. I can not imagine trying it with someone else. I've been going for almost a year as well, and we still talk about me feeling uncomfortable and not opening up. I did just write her an e-mail sharing my last journal entry, and even now I am still freaking out whenever I think about it. She READ it :eek :eek I have to go in next week and read it myself and TALK about it. I don't know why its freaking me out, but i've been a nervous wreck since I sent it last night...next thursday feels a longgggg way away.