((((((((((((( lmg )))))))))))))))
I still don't think that this is your fault, I went for a year where my symptoms were really bad and having a big impact on my daily life before I sought help and even then I was pretty much backed up in a corner is why I went for help.
Please try to be kind to yourself, I am sorry that your parents are being harsh towards you, here is some hugs just for you.