This week's T session was difficult for me. I didn't know what to say. I finally told him I didn't know what to say, and he said I could take it any number of ways, it was up to me.

He had asked me to consider writing something down that had been a problem for me so I could tell him about it. I did write it down, so I decided to try to tell him about it because he would rather i speak than give him something to read. He warned me we only had a few minutes left, so I wouldn't get too upset about something and then have to leave, so then I decided to just give him the thing I wrote and he did read it. I only wrote part of it, I said I would try to write the other, more difficult part this week.

I wrote the other part today. It was so hard to do. I have never told anyone about it. I think I can trust him, but lord am I worried about sharing it with him. Someone said in another post they try to think of T as just a guide as they speak their truth, which helps them not worry too much about what he thinks. I really liked that. I am trying to remember that.

Thanks for listening.

vienna