I do understand, but that can come in time. It means all the world for me to have my bf here with me, it helps me so much. But people who don't have an intimate with them can still make it through. It starts with friends.
You can find someone to be intimate with, but let that come in time, you have to take things step by step, grab onto what you do have right now, and let the rest come
I'm sorry you feel alone