I worry about what my T thinks about me, sometimes. I try to stay grounded, though. What helps greatly is that I have some experience working with disordered children - I remember how it was. You don't see patients as your friends, or coworkers, or family, or neighbors, or whatever. It's a different relationship. You WORK with these people, your job is improving them, so you're happy when they're doing good, and you work hard not to feel like a failure when they're doing bad. It's like they're your work project, but at the same time they're also alive. You bond with them. I don't really worry what my T thinks about me, I said it wrong. I worry if she bonded, if she has accepted me as "her" project by now, or it hasn't happened yet. Does she see me as her patient, or as a random stranger. This is what I worry about. My previous therapist never bonded, but never refered me away either, it was so frustrating - why waste my time and money?! Why keep on if you're not willing to get involved? When I finally quit him, I saw such a relief on his face, but why the heck wait for the patient to initiate termination of therapy that you can't or don't want to provide to start with? This is just so immature, so irresponsible, so unprofessional, so plain silly. I've never encountered something like that before, so now I'm kinda worried about this new one I have. And she's super-professional-psychodynamic, never letting any personal thoughts/feelings/moods out, like a machine - it's a good thing, I guess, but sometimes I wonder, what if she feels about me the same way that other guy did? I don't want her to like me, all I want is for her to be involved, to care. Not about me as a person, about this project she's having...