I think most people worry about what their T thinks of them - when I told mine about the sexual abuse incident in my childhood I was sure he would turn around and look at me as if i had crawled out from under a rock - he didnt - his face didnt reveal anything - which of course then made me think oh great so he's thinking I crawled out from under a rock - or oh my god what a loony or why is she wasting my time!- I guess we all fill in the blanks for ourselves when we feel vulnerable - apart from my abuser he was the only one i had told so I was feeling pretty vulnerable - but i couldnt say that in case he said "dont be so stupid" not that he or any therapist would (I hope not!)
- it helps me to remind myself they are human like us and are dealing with what we say on a professional basis - but I still wonder what he thinks... P7
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