I heard a line in a song today and it rang true to me - it was

" she could never leave the dark cos she could never see the light"

So how do you do that ? how can you find the light when you cant see it - I do all the things I have been taught, but the darkness and the sadness is still there inside... waiting ....I dont feel sad today - I dont feel anything.... I stand at the edge of the storm again and im tired of doing this - I found someone who could help me that i trusted then he got seriously ill - now through desperation I went and saw the work referred psyche again - and she cant see how desperate I am and I cant tell her because she said there were certain things she would HAVE to tell my on site work psychologist (he usually sees you first then you can get a referral to the work provided psyche) I should be grateful for this that I am being provided with help, and I am - but I am getting nowhere and I only have so much strength left

P7