((((((((((((jude2)))))))))) I'm so sorry you feel like. I hope that the more you look around in here, visit the different forums, resources, blogs, etc., that you'll start to feel more comfortable. I know that I have found that I am able to post things and not be judged....even if I just need to rant and cry, someone will see it and give me a hug and not tell me I'm stupid and not tell me not to do it and not tell me to just deal with it. Talking to yourself is a great way to work through things. Have you started your own blog here? Might want to try that, too. Post away--let us know what we can help you with.