(((((((Life))))))))),
What happened to you is very common. I think we have a few threads going on about this now, about how when we disclose information to our Ts that it makes us feel very vulnerable! It also is normal (here at PC) to NOT want to feel your feelings. Unfortunately, at least for me, that is why I'm having so much trouble. I've repressed a lot of emotions and they've come back with a vengeance. I hope you will continue to see your T and work through this. It is difficult but worth it in the end (I hope as I'm not there yet). I wish you the best!